A New Light of Advice

So clearly, a lot of people know what I'm going through;
a lot.
They all have the general consensus that what's going on now is for the best,
but of course, no one knows for sure.
Next week will be a month that we haven't spoke;
that's a long time.
For me...for us anyways.

And someone who's close to me, usually dead against this relationship,
gave me a refreshing bit of advice that I haven't heard from anyone yet.
Not one single person has said this to me,
and coming from him was an utter surprise.
I was stunned.
"Bro, why don't you just talk to her then?"
This guy always says I should get as far away from her as possible,
but not this time.
"Look at you, you're miserable. Just talk to her.
Maybe this time around things will be more civil, more settled."

I was so confused,
I didn't know what to think.
Everyone said the opposite, and made the most sense;
part of me even agreed with it.
But now a new perspective that I've had bottled inside me;
ever since the moment I walked away down that hall.

It's something I have to work out within myself,
to realize if that is even viable.
Maybe it can work, maybe it can't.
My feelings won't change,
but I might be able to approach her more level-headed.
And maybe she can approach me more level-headed.
But maybe she doesn't want me there?
Who knows.

I do want to talk to her, I really do.
And maybe she doesn't.
Hmm...interesting situation.
Should I say hi?
Or should I do nothing?

This new light of advice...
making things seem more appealing.
Maybe we'll never be together,
maybe I can handle that more now.
Or maybe I can't.

Hmm...thinking time again,
let's see how it goes.
This one month next week is crucial,
but the pain I do have I don't want it anymore.
She really was a huge part of my life,
and I wish I had that portion back.
It just disappeared overnight.
Part of me does need her,
and maybe she doesn't need me.

But this new light of advice,
has me thinking about what to do next.