Today I Stopped Loving You

Today

You said that you loved me with all of your heart.
You said that you would never leave my side, no matter what.
You said that you would always be my knight in shining armor.
You said that you were done with me because all I could provide was empty love.

You said I was nothing to you.

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Today,

I said that I loved you with all of my heart.
I said that I would never leave your side, no matter what.
I said that I would always be your princess in a locked tower, waiting for you to come riding in.
I said that you had crushed whatever dreams that I might have had about a future with you.

I said that you had broken me.

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Today,

My friends that I shared with you had abandoned me.
My family would never be more than a coincidence.
My future would be devoid of happiness.
My past would come up to stab me in he back.

My wrists are covered in scars and gashes.

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Today,

I fell into a black abyss with no one to help me out.
I fell deeper into hell and have yet to find a way out.
I fell further away from myself and closer to death.
I fell into a lake and swallowed water like oxygen.

I fell completely out of love with you.

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Today,

I thought it was the end.
I thought that I would die.
I thought that you still loved me.
I thought that you still cared for me.

I thought that you were once my only reason for living.

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Today,

I finally found myself bleeding from cuts and gashes.
I finally found a way to ease my pain and suffering.
I finally found a way to see you smiling at me just one more time.
I finally found your smiling face in an ocean of my blood.

I finally found a way to make you smile for the rest of your life.

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Today,

I found out what it feels like to die and go to hell.
And I found it by looking into your never ending eyes.
I want to thank you for being the death of me.