Brutally Honest

I can't really explain
Why I can't tell you my feelings
What do you want me to say?
That I'm this perfect little being
Cause I'm not
And we both know it

So maybe I get myself in trouble
It's not my fault
All the men
Fucking want me
But I really am striving to get better
At making man fall to their knees

And I know it's a game
To all the juniors
To see how really stupid
I am in the classroom
I understand I'm imperfect
But they don't need to make it worse

I'm not entirely sure
Why I still love people who hurt me
It's just that I'm too nice of a person
To let go of the horrible people
And I know I could make it easier
If I just kinda pushed myself away

I know I can get far
If I try hard enough
Yet that's the problem
Because I really don't care
Just get this psychology theory
Over and done with

So let me tell you
The brutal truth
And maybe a lie
That even I can convince
Myself and everyone else
To believe

I'm a whore
By relationship means
And I know what I want
And I know I can't have it
Because I've fucked myself over
Too many times

Maybe I love you
Maybe I hate you
Either way
You're still here aren't you
So that should make you
Somewhat happy

But either way
I should go
'Cause pain makes you stronger
Yet makes me weaker
And I don't want to be here
Anymore