With time I .. Fail?

Day in and day out.
I give it all I got.
Until I collapse.
Losing it all, On the spot
Nothing I say,
And nothing I do.
Will change the way you feel.
Making me blue.
I try so hard to perfect myself.
To put that smile on your face.
But I fail every time.
Falling without grace.
I can cry so many tears.
Scream so loud in my head.
You just sit there.
With nothing said.
I can kill my own soul,
with my OCD thoughts.
Struggle to find the truth.
My inner peace rots.
Your supposed to love me.
For what I am.
But instead you torture me.
A defenceless lamb
You put words in my mouth.
And mock me with hate,
This love thing hurts.
Why take your bait?
I can give you the world,
and treat you like King.
But you say hurtful things.
They stab and they sting.
But every day still,
It seems not enough.
Soon I will stand my ground.
I will stand tough.