coca-ethylene

i think you told me it's all bullshit
please sit there with your girlfriend
and smile cos there's no tomorrow.
but does she know you've almost died
3 times this semester.
does she know you say
"god damnit, i love you" and promise
for trust.
if she tells you she's worried
you should cut her out too.
it would be the proper thing to do.

oh darling i think i knew you once
but we have never really met, have we?
because i'd always be dating one of your friends
and watching you hiding in the background.

we have this connection. lost touch.
like carrots and mayonnaise or
peanut butter and pickles.
i can see us fitting in this other world
where we've succumbed to the desires
we are too cowardly to face at this moment in time.

as you ingest powders and i draw across the
pale parts of me, we sit and break each other's hearts.
don't pretend you know me because i have never
told you everything and i think one day
we will have coffee and laugh about the times
i told you to get help and you kindly whispered a
"fuck you"
in my direction.

i'm still trying to keep you here.
don't forget me when you're famous and
dating the hot bleach blonde who loves
the green in you.

coca-ethylene was never your friend.