Lose It All

"Thank-you" you say, after I offer to listen,
but you don't know
how much you really mean to me,
and I want you to be my everything

"I love you"
"I love you too"
"Thank-you"
I'm trying to figure out why I say thank-you
everytime someone actually says they love me back;
I guess I'm too grateful for the things I crave

My best friend tells me that love is a lie
we give to ourselves, to hide the fact that
we are just animals, and emotions don't exist
Believing conceals our brains from painful things

Why do I always drag myself into the most
painful things?
Why do I hurt all the time?

But I'm another one of
those fools who believes that we are
much more than the sum of our neurons

I can't be comforted with a lie,
but I can't keep living "on empty"

All I ever wanted was to feel whole,
and I'd give up everything
even all my limbs, because they're
only there to keep the joints in place

and I'd lose it all, just to feel like you loved me.