In Black Skies (A New Moon Arises)

The waves of pain that had
Only lapped at me before,
Now reared high up and washed over my head,
Pulling me under.
I did not resurface.

Lying at the floor,
I could just remember of the time
His strong arms held me
- The very best time of my life –
And I refused to realize that
He was gone,
Forever.

How could it be true?
How could I’ve been left alone?
How could he leave me,
After everything I told him?

He knew,
I know he knew
It would kill me.

I know he knew that
His absence
Would destroy the life that
Somewhere in time,
He definitely improved.

I tried to remember
My piano lullaby
But memories seem to be vanished
Far away.

“It will be as if I’d never existed”,
He said
And a part of me felt he was being
Sincere,
But it wasn’t that easy.

I was sure that his promise
Wouldn’t destroy my dreams,
The ones that he
Made real,
And all the ones
I shared with him.

I am aware
That I will feel his absence
For all the eternity.

My perfect twilight
Came to an end,
A new moon arises
In black skies.
And unless
He comes back,
Softly reaching my hand,
I will eternally live
In a moonless night.

“I will stay with you
- Isn’t that enough?”
Is the only sentence I can hear.
Then,
The gentle notes of my lullaby
Invade my nightmare
And I’ve almost felt happy
For a brief moment
- Until I finally remembered
That I was alone.