I Will Survive

Light is fading on this Friday evening, leaving a shadow of regrets in my lap.
Having a drink may help me swallow my pride.
I want so badly to scream out my window
“All I want is some freedom from the mind games!!!”


The morning’s mystic hue lent an overshadowed backdrop for the remembrance of yesterday’s afternoon delight that turned into a puzzling of promises broken;
important promises of truthfulness and faithfulness. Now you ask me to forgive and forget your breaking of that vow.

You chose to wait until after my aching desire for your love had been sated to reveal that truth to me. Did you think that I would just calmly use my pink hair brush and choose to ignore your words as I looked for my set of keys to make my golf lesson?

I fell apart…right there in front of you, I shamed myself and went to pieces.
All I wanted was you forever. Now you say forever has been interrupted
by a “small transgression” on your part. I can’t accept that.

                                  But how do I live without you?

I need to be strong and hold to my dreams.
I should never let this date go down in my life’s journal as the day I lost my mind.
I will go on, I will, I swear!

I will loose the chains that bound us and take a picture of myself with the camera you gave me to serve as a reminder of what I looked like with a broken heart.

But every time I see mint toothpaste, I will think of you and laugh. For I will reclaim my life and know that YOU are the loser. I will take a short period of mourning and then I will continue to live, knowing I am worthy of more than you could ever give.

                                I deserve the best and that isn’t you.