Fallowing You

The Shadows on my cold heart
Are all that keep me from falling apart,
When the day comes to a close,
And I must face what I chose.

If I want to die,
I must lie,
And say I believe
And pretend not to grieve.
This act is wearng me down
I want to drown
In what I really feel
And not have to (be/play) what's not real.

But when you lie to yourself so long,
Its hard to get along
Without that comforting lie,
Without pretending not to cry,
Without masking tears,
Without having those fears.
How could you
Possibly be tru
Without these things?

Like a bird with no wings,
I walk down these halls,
With square white tiled walls,
And ceilings with lights
So excruciatingly bright,
Glaring off the walls and floor
Walking down a hall with no doors.

The Machine is whirring,
The Monster stirring,
Glowing eyes open, teeth bared.
But I never cared.
I only pretended to.
For you.
Because that is what's expected,
When you this infected.
You must lie,
Pretend you don't want to die,
Pretend not to car why,
Pretend that the sky
Isn't falling on our heads
While we're laying in our beds
At night, a night with no moon.

Our hearts don't beat in tune,
In tone,
My beats on its own,
But that can never be shown,
Because then I'd be an Other
Not just Another.

I can't be different, but
I won't be a slut
Baring a truth that isn't mine,
Walking down the same line
With the same people everday,
To me that's not okay.
For me there's a different way,
But for you its not okay.

My world must be - you
+me +another 2,
That's all I need:
A world minus your ugly breed
Of Machanical Dolls
Because I don't mind the Trolls
Who wear black.
So you better watch your back
Because one day they'll come fore you.
Your face will turn blue
And you tongue will swell
You neck will break as well
You'll be taken down so fast
You won't even see your life go past.
.....................................
I can believe this all I want
But you'll still be there to haunt
My every waking moment
Till my truth is dormant,
And I can't find my own trail,
And my cries are hidden in the wail
Of death and and screams of pain,
Of those you've hurt again.

Without my mind
I'm left behind,
But you don't want me anyway
So I know it is okay.
I'm still meant to fallow
Stay behind you though,
We're not meant to be together,
Our kinds don't mesh; never, ever.

Without rhyme or reason,
You still pass the season
By toruring the different, the insane
And somehow we always get blamed
For all YOUR faults,
Blamed for all your assaults
On our hearts, our brians,
And you break our parts, give us pains.

This can't be the way.
I can't be meant to stay.