Why don't I matter?
all my life I've looked for
someone to love me
for who I am
instead of viewing me as a shadow
Vacant eyes are pleading for love;
a true, abiding, devoted love
and
no "frilly" words can coo or soothe me
I have lived a thousand lies
and I have survived a million tears
and I've always tried to reach for the light;
the "dawning" of my life...
the promise of a better tomorrow
I feel as if I have
no more chances;
I don't want to play any more games
I'm rebuilding my shell from the tormented years;
choking on the dust of hopes dashed
I remember writing like this (for me):
"I don't want her to be absent,
so I plea for her to stay"
and I'm just a little confused,
I must admit...
It's seem like love's easier when it's far away;
less puzzling...
for
now, saline teardrops fall
as my
soul seeps from my eyes
with dull ache
and I swallow back the screams of agony I want to scream
As I said, love's easier when it's far away
and I regret that I've come to feel that way
I feel as though we're two ships that pass in the night;
we both smile and we say it's alright but is it?
I'm tired of feeling as if I don't "measure up";
mostly due to my own insecurities and what flows through my mind, I admit,
but still...
I will never be in the league of "heroes";
my back is up against the wall and I have no more "fight" within me...
it seems you and I are like strangers
a wide ways apart as we drift on through time
and I don't know how to make it better...
Author notes
Picture credit:
sleeping time... by *EmilyaManole
Used words (I don't know how many or exactly which ones) from the word bank option
lines taken from the song, "Ships" by Barry Manilow and from the poem, "A Plea To An Angel..." by Bedroom Eyes
A contest entry
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Comments
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Thank You for Your Entry ~
Beautifully full of sorrow; I could feel the words as I read them -
softly expressed with a great flow and stellar last line!
best of luck
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Barry Manilow is awesome, this is all inspiring to me, you are real, and it is personal. Emotions ring out. Excellent. Blessings.
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Very well stated. Sad and a true bit of the frustration of human self analysis and the criticisms associated with love and longing.
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Sis, this one made me cry. For I have felt like this, and to find a love that loves me for just me is the most precious gift I could ever hope for.
Joann
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I have lived a thousand lies
and I have survived a million tearsThis is a great write. Nice job with the prompt.
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Sis, This is so sad and I hope that whatever hurdles you must get over to be happy again will come very soon, It is so wonderful to see you smiling and happy and not a sad angel like in this piece
Love ya
It will be ok!!
Lynda
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Sweetheart, I didn't even read this whole thing... I couldn't. It brought up too many oof my own feelings. I so know these words and the painful cutting edge of them. I am tired of being seen for only what those eyes can see; and not what lies inside the soul. I too am tired of the games and seemingly intentional hurtfullness. There is a knight out there with your name etched upon his heart waiting for you hun. It's just amazing all the crap we have to go through to find that one. Best to you my friend.
Storm
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Can relate to this write so well right now hon could never place it on here the same never in a million years but thank you for saying what cries from my heart
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Oh My Word Sis!
Holy Moly
Oy!
Beautiful piece penned which tugs at the Heart
but Heartwrenching to read because it tugs
at Spirit~
You have taken the prompt and kicked it up
many levels~ however...it swells the eyes
There is much to talk about~
It is time to get that smile
back on Your face
Keep that quill dancing
Thank You for sharing Your Voice Beautiful One
Best wishes in the contest~
with love & light~ Desire~*~
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I can so identify with this write. Its difficult to know what to do at times and I seem to have the great ability to make bad choices. I think love at a distance works because we don't have to actually live with someone 24/7. But when in love, you want all the time together you can possibly get so what is the right answer? LOL Beats me
Good luck with this marvelous piece. It's a winner in my book.
Sharon
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Excellent
Wow, what an amazing write. you so grabbed the hear with this one. What a deep and powerful write. Best of luck in the contest
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That is so sad. I just hope its just a poem and not happoning to you now.
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this is stunning dear one for the words have so much meaning in song you have penned a beauty so sad in song hugs always Angel♥
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This is very lovely and you did a great job with the word bank and thr way you carried it off. Thank you for letting me read your nice poem with lovely imagery and sadness too.
Brook -
Oh my, this is stunning YASB
There is so much Depth in this peace..many stanzas I can realate to so very much..I love a piece that stays simplicit yet speaks very powerful..you have achieved this here..love is puzzling both near and far..not knowing what to do to help tugs heavy at the..an anchor hung on an obstacle not letting the our life boat to travel forward but to scamper about in circles going nowhere..
"hero" our world thrives on heroes, yet I often think this is superficial..why are celebs and sports stars heroes..some ppl think Charles Manson is a hero..why does others [and their problems] expect me to become some hero to magical become their salvation when I have no clue where to begin..
...when will it be politically corect for me just to be me and be respected for this achievement alone
show me a child with disabilities overcoming obstacles and just love to be alive..show me a child that says "no to drugs"..show me child that stays in school because he or she loves to learn..show me parents that truly understands what "unconditional love is"...then a hero is born
Wow..you words caused me to get carried away..Brilliant job!!!
Wish you the best..luvsss hugsss & kissesss too YASB
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