Mommy...?
How come you can't get sober?
Why don't you ever want to talk?
Why don't you listen to me?
Why don't you punish Eddie,
when he hits and calls me names?
Why did you get drunk on my birthday,
even after I asked you not to?
Mommy...?
Why don't you care for my grades?
Why don't you care what I do with guys?
Why can't you look me straight in the face?
What did I ever do to you?
Why do you ask me to lie for you?
Why haven't you noticed the cuts on my hand?
Why don't you come to my orchestra concerts?
Mommy...?
What am I to you?
Why do I have to be the adult?
Why can't I just live like a normal teenager?
Daddy...?
Why did you only want a son?
Why did you put a gun up to my head?
Why did you kidnap me and leave me at,
a gas station to die?
Why did you marry that lady Wendy?
Why didn't you want me?
What did I ever do to you?
Daddy...?
Why did you hit me?
Why did you call me those names?
Why did you neglect me?
Why do you want to get in contact now,
after 9 years?
What am I to you?
What would you say,
if I told you what happened with all those boys?
What would you say,
if I told you what was going on in this house?
Daddy...?
Why am I never good enough?
Why can't I be 'daddy's little girl'?
Why did you never want me???
WHY CAN'T I DO ANYTHING RIGHT????
Little Brother,
Why do you hit me?
Why do you call me a slut?
Why do you call me a bitch?
What did I ever do to you?
Why do you always yell at me?
Why can't I be happy?
Why are you like this?
Little Brother...
Why do you get your friends,
to beat me up?
Why do you get your friends,
to call me names?
Why do you not want me to be happy?
Why do you make fun of me,
when I tell you things?
Little Brother...
Why do you always yell at me,
whenever I walk into a room?
Why am I never good enough to get,
a 'good job' or 'that's cool'?
Grandma...?
Why do you yell at me?
Why am I never good enough?
Why do you hit me?
Why do you call me names?
Why are you so stressful?
Why am I nothing to you?
Why did you say I'd never accomplish anything?
Grandma...?
Why can't I do anything well?
Why do you always tell me the mistakes I've made?
What did I ever to do you?
Why do you always tell me to 'cover up',
when I'm not even wearing anything slutty?
Why do you yell at me,
if I just make one tiny mistake?
Author notes
Written on Saturday, November 7, 2009. This is dedicated to my family because I never do anything right in their eyes, I am yelled at and called names. My father is no longer allowed to see me and hasn't been since 2000, but I included him in this poem because he left questions unanswered and I can't even call him and ask him these questions. I have many more but I needed to cut off the questions on some of them because I wanted everyone to have an almost equal amount. I started new stanzas if I felt that one particular one was getting too long and I thought it sounded better doing that, instead of just four lists combined. They are four lists combined but with the new stanza's I thought it sounded more like a poem. I'm thinking of making this into a song, although I need my friend to create the melody, because I'm no good at writing a certain amount of lyrics and then adding music to them, I either have to do one or the other.
I chose this particular background because you usually relate teddy bears to children, and in this poem, the randomness of the questions and the naïveté of the questions is like that of a little girl.
I edited 'Mother' into 'Mommy' and Father into 'Daddy' and Grandmother to 'Grandma' to make it seem more like a little girl.
This was inspired by my friend Tina's poem.
Please comment and say what you thought!
Comments
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wow this is sad and really good i have not seen my father since 2003 so i know how u feel i never do things right in my familys eyes either soyea i see your point nice work
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thanks ^^ sorry I didn't reply quickly, my internet was down for, like 4 days. X.X
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wow hun!
this was so sad....i know how you feel trust me but..but your like a sister to me. and i could and wont ever do that you..cause i no how it feels and i no it hurts but im here i love you even tho it sounds like they dont....i love you lots hun!!!! *tina* -
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*hugs back* loves you to!!!!!
~Heather~
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