Jenna

Once upon a time, I remember there was warm.
A little feeling that I tried, but could not form.
In the depths of my fondest memories,
I go to sit, to run away from reality.

Though I try I can't pretend anymore.
The place I knew is gone once more, gone once more.
What can I do when my fantasy world turns grey instead of shining like a pearl
In the middle of the darkest ocean?

Once upon a time we used to love to smile
And laugh about the silly things. We would run for miles.
With our long hair flowing free behind our backs
Like a ribbon but it's been cut and the shine has been stripped away.

Though I try I can't pretend anymore.
The place I knew is gone once more, gone once more.
What can I do when my fantasy world turns grey instead of shining like a pearl
In the middle of the darkest ocean?

Now we wait, we wait for the day that we can say:
I'm sorry for the things I said.
Sometimes I lie awake in bed
And think of what we used to be.
I feel like I have lost my friend to a
Dark world where there's no end
To the torture and temptation
In the form of pills and needles.

And I say:
Why can't you stay?
And I think of what we were like yesterday
When we lived in the happy place inside my head.
Why can't we live there together instead of where we suffer here?