The Lonely Decease

There’s something evil about the silence
It’s as if they only come to me during times of peace
Makes me wonder why I shouldn’t just live in conflict
Peace and harmony is so overrated…
I’d much rather be hated. 

Do you feel that tongue running up your spine?
It’s my demon wishing my soul could be mine
Take a breath and hold it…
Allow your brain to malfunction and wake to darkness
Your lungs are dead; the only entity in your chest is emptiness
Fill your mind with the evil that is bound to make you full
Between the two personalities, none of them want to be whole

What is my name?  (I’ve forgotten)
None of me wants this fame; all of me deserves this shame
Lungs still closed?  That’s the only way they should be
Heart still gone?  That’s the way it’s always been
Alone in the dark?  That’s the way it’ll forever be
Whether alive or dead, there’s still nothing here for you to see

The souls…
They’re all so perfect being gone
Not a word to say, not a care in the world
You should feel your heart rate increasing—
The lack of oxygen to the brain sends a shock—
Throughout your entire body
In this place, there is no such thing as peace
That never mattered…
UNTIL NOW!

I am once again sleeping alone
No other soul shall be dreaming of me with closed eyes
But somewhere, splattered throughout the angst—
Find relaxation, or what I believe to be so
The fire that spreads over the cross slowly dies
A sliver of hope shines through the angel with bleeding eyes     























































NOT FOR ME, MOTHERFUCKERS!
Not for me
NOT FOR ME, MOTHERFUCKERS!
Not for me
FUCK YOU!

I’m drowning; I feel the blood running through my eyes
Keeping my soul in reach, all I hear are your lies
Over and over again, deeper and deeper within
Over and over again, deeper and deeper within
OVER AND OVER AGAIN!
DEEPER AND DEEPER WITHIN!
Mother of the beast…
The nature of is all

The one who makes you laugh is the one who slits their wrists and night while they cry

You’re such a liar…
Survival bleeds out mankind’s true colors
They’ll love you…
As long as you roof them in golden shelters
Envy is the greedy, lustful wishes of gluttony
Sweet liars die as rotten pieces of shit
Only if you’d feel ashamed, then you’d learn to take the blame
INSTEAD, I INHALE YOUR PAIN!

NOT FOR ME, MOTHERFUCKERS!
Not for me
NOT FOR ME, MOTHERFUCKERS!
Not for me
FUCK YOU!

FUCK YOU, FUCK YOU AND YOUR STUPID SHIT!
FUCK YOUR FEELINGS, I’M DONE AND THAT’S IT
The pounding in my head only gets harder
The hate within my heart only screams louder
Angels speak in my ears all the softer

Ignition of the insane, banishment of the bleeding brain
Exiled from the nothing, he decided to start believing in something
But without the nothing, you can’t have the something—can you?
You can’t have something before you have nothing—can you?
CAN YOU!

Heart with scars, mind behind bars, wishing to fly amongst the stars
In the end, life is so much better when it seems so fucking hard
Make your decision; you know your answer is a lie
I know it, you know it, the rest don’t have a fucking clue
Spit in my face, piss on my grave; THIS IS NOTHING NEW!

Take a knife and slit your wrists,
You’re so fucking lucky, last time you missed
LUCK-
Had nothing to do with it—
Missing was your intention, go ahead and fake some more depression
YOU’RE SO FULL OF SHIT

My life is once again mine
There is no other soul for me to dedicate myself to
I’ve reached from the grave three times…
Only to be broken three times
That’s a permanent crack in my heart
It’s so impaired, beyond repair,
All because I was the only one whoever cared

The melted road that lies ahead
Milestones that seem to only pull away
Question my faith, question how much I am willing to save
It’s something beyond comprehension; I just know it’s there

Truth of truths, this is what the cowardice of lairs promised to swear

NOT FOR ME, MOTHERFUCKERS!
Not for me
NOT FOR ME, MOTHERFUCKERS!
Not for me
FUCK YOU!

ERRRRAHHH!  FUCK YOU!
FUCK YOU, YOU CAN’T KILL ME
FUCK YOU, YOU CAN’T TAKE ME
FUCK YOU, YOU CAN’T KILL ME
FUCK YOU, YOU CAN’T TAKE ME...

I am here…

You are__________________________________________________________^___________________________________________________________________^________^______________________^___________________^___________________________^_____________________________^^^^^^^^^^^^_^___^_________________^_______________________________________^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^____________________^___________________________________^___^_^_^_^_^________________________^You’re almost______________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________gone…