smile for the crowd!

the flash of the spotlight
Me, on stage
the feeling of thrill and excitement
I can feel the vibs of the audience, it feels so right!
I look into the crowd, all unfamilure faces, none of them loved ones
Just people.

After preformance, the thrill still runs within me, but it's replaced by dissapointment and strong, unforgetable depression.
I am all alone
Looking into the faces of friends, all with families.
Being congradulated for all their efforts, oh how I envy them. Oh how I despise them right now.
Why do they get to be so happy? When I'm left in the cold. All alone, crying in the corner?
Where are my flowers? Where are my hugs? Where is my good job? Or how about "You were fantastic!" No all I get is shit.

But yet I have the control, to smile for the crowd. Smile for the crowd...