A Waterfall of Silent Screams

It wouldn’t matter if I screamed my throat raw
If my vocal cords withered down to shreds
You only hear what you wish to hear
Despite everything that I said

A waterfall of silent screams
Neon pleas nobody hears
An aching heart shrouded in trial
These words fall on deaf ears

I close my eyes in a tear-ridden world
And wake up to a land of sorrows
Denied a fairy-tale ending, a future
No promise of golden tomorrows

Detained in the lies of expectation
Unable to trust this attack
But the truth is that you are long gone
With no intentions of coming back

Yet the phone rings off the hook with your calls
It’s only THEM you wish to heed
Your ignorance leaves me shaking with rage
Ice cold, numb feeling, bleed

I despise your whole being to the point
That revulsion seeps from my eyes
Truthfully, frankly, you sincerely disgust me
Just get the fuck out our lives

Yet after everything you’ve done
The thing that hurts the worst
Is knowing that this is goodbye, Dad
Our family must truly be cursed

And it wouldn’t matter if I tore a hole in my chest
Slashed a void where my heart belongs
You only see what you want to see
Regardless of all that you’ve done.

~Jessica Lee
November 6th, 2009
5:50 PM