Busgirl

and a beginning shouldn't have an end
and any person can be a good friend
and I meant who when I really said when
and it all starts here.

and I say she's waiting by the gate
and I really mean she's too tired to wait
and I really mean she's a victim of fate
and it all starts here.

and she's climbing on the bus so high
and she's pulling her bag from the pavement dry
and she's hoisting herself into the seat at my side
and it all starts here.

and meanwhile,plasted on the walls is me
and I'm aching for my chance to leave
and all around the air can't breathe
and it all starts here.

and Lisa hasn't time to linger
and King just wants to get there quicker
and everyone's feeling sicker and sicker
and it all starts here.

and the bus is pulling to a halt
and I say its not, but its all my fault
and no one stares at the young adult
and it all starts here.

and they all fall down, one by one
and I saw some lady reach for her son
and I saw the blood down my leg as it runs
and it all starts here.

and there's screeching and shrieking and noises around
and I reach for the boy and don't make a sound
and he slips through my fingers like a rock through the ground
and it all starts here.

and I'm surprised to see her sitting next to me still
and she can't see anything by mere sheer will
and she's asking me if we've taken a spill
and it all starts here.

and I'm holding her head in my broken lap
and she's laughing and laughing in a joyful gasp
and she still doesn't care that we're hopelessly trapped
and it all starts here.

and we're waiting for the ambulances to come
and I know its gonna be another lump sum
and I know it'll just be another 100 done
and it all starts here.

and I'm stroking her hair without thinking
and she's smiling though her eyelids are blinking
and I look at her and wonder if she's sinking
and it all starts here.

and she's sitting, quietly now
and the sirens are silent somehow
and she's being pulled from my quivering vow
and it all starts here.

and I see her dark plume of hair
and it streaks past in the smoky air
and to see her lifted away, I can't bear
and it all starts here.

and I never see her again
and it seems so long since then
and I still think of who and not when
and it all ended here.