Im afraid to want to move forward
Ive found what ive been looking for
All the days and nights ive hoped for this
Ive cried for this
Ive dreampt of this
Now its here falling into my hands
Right into my lap
Yet i seem to wanna push it away
Im unsure why i ask for something but wanna stay away from it
Im unsure why i dream of this and yet when i have it it feels like a nightmare
Im unsure why i imagine myself which such goodness but as i receive it, i complain.
What does that mean?
Im hard to please?
I dont know what i want?
I look terrible begging then throwing away what ive asked for?
I dont know what i need... help. help?
Is there something wrong with me?
Should i be fixed?
Am i even broken?
It feels that way...
It feels messed up.
I feel messed up...
God... Hes in my heart. I hope... and pray to Him... He gives me the sight to heal my blindness to figure out what i wanna do. I think i know...
But is it Thee choice.
It just might be... It just might be.
What do you think and do you ever feel this way?
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Im unsure why i ask for something but wanna stay away from it
Im unsure why i dream of this and yet when i have it it feels like a nightmare
Im unsure why i imagine myself which such goodness but as i receive it, i complain.
What does that mean?
Im hard to please?
I dont know what i want?
I look terrible begging then throwing away what ive asked for?
These lines spoke to me the most in your write. It's a great write from start to finish but these lines really remind me of myself at times. Keep on writing and smiling and good luck in all you do.
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I like this... If anyone knows what im saying... as i wrote this... it reminded me of everything i went thru. Its good yet bad... Its tough
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