never have i ever

you can't.
sweep me off my feet
take my breath away
make my eyelids flutter
make my pupils dilate

just take one minute
tell me what went wrong
and where and when
tell me i was never the one
you wanted. it was all just
an experiment to see
how the new girl would fit
in here.

i love the moments where
you didn't care. the smiles
you'd throw my way and
the lashes you'd bat at me.

maybe it's because i
didn't hear your voice
the night the red and
white lights rushed me
to charing cross hospital.
i could have said
anything
to scare you away.

but i didn't want you yet.
and now
i can't have you.

just.
please.
sweep me off my feet.
take my breath away.
make my eyelids flutter.
make my pupils dilate.

the night. you remember that night.
i could have done everything right.