7. When I wake up I hate the way reality sets in

I'm looking forward
to a good nights sleep
it's been so long
since the accident
my back was injured
my life changed
gradually at first
I tried all I was told
had procedures
a surgery, medicine
an intrathecal pump
implanted inside me
run directly to my brain
strong narcotics dripping
I start to drift asleep
a cpap on my face
somehow over the years
I'd grown accustomed to it
it was to help my sleep
to ease the pain I felt
yet the only time
I became pain free
is when I really slept
I think tonight it'll be
I can now escape
my wheel chair and pain
the depression I felt
I could walk in my dreams
run and play with the kids
do all the things I'd
been unable to do for years
but when I wake up
I hate the way reality
comes back and sets in.

Author notes

This prompt: 7. When I wake up I hate the way reality sets in really hit home with me. I suffer from a back injury since 2000 that causes chronic pain. The only time I can escape it is when I'm asleep,and I mean in restoraive sleep. That seldom happens, with me instead awakening from the pain. So fitting it is that when I wake reality sits in and I'm reminded again I can't walk.