talking hands.

hey hun yeah how are you i didn't see you this morning oh well yeah i was late again but whatever

how are youuu

oh. well
like,

it's kind of hard to get

  disappointed
when i never set myself up for anything more than
fiiiiiive weeks. just five weeks and he always will.

                                go, i mean.        i just know he will because
he's never looking for me,
he's just looking for someone who likes to make out in elevators
or someone who isn't like quite so
young or someone who isnt...
so like me

and


yeah.
i'm just really, kind of, god-tired.
i mean, like, imagine having to deal with all these
kids with such ugly faces
whining at you all day long? ugh.
i'd die.

but, yeah, that's how i feel today, only.
say, i was some sort of uh a...
hold on  a minute i know what it's called
ugh i HAD it i swear uh

oh. a

pheonix, like in the like fifth harry potter i think? only
i never got to die, i was just
          reborn
like painting over
                      an already painted canvas every
day and. until i start peeling and
i'd look like that car truck thingy we saw at the thrift store
a couple weeks, ago, you remember?        when i bought the plaid thing.

i know i always buy plaid when i go thrift-t-tting.
oh. oopsy doopsy. i meant that other time.
              anyway, like, what if i never got to die,
or get new again?

i'd get old and wrinkly and stuff, and shit.
and that's how i feel today and after he called
me a liar and now she's not even talking to me anymore...
yeah she doesn't even look at me in the halls or anything. yeah- it's kind of killing me.

and i almost yelled at him for calling me that because he knows how much i hate
lying ugh. let's just not even like mention him right now okay 'cause i really can't deal i'm not like upset or... anything im just kind of i don't know i just no i don't want to talk about him because
he's over
with.


ugh.

remind me to become emily dickinson,

k?





oh well she like
never left her house and spent all her time writing poetry and such and...

          oh shuddup that does NOT sound like me!
ha.hahahaaaahii



yeah well i don't wanna go be with people right now,
life is just too inconsiderate, dontcha think?






haha okiedokie i'll talk to you later darling.