My Selfishness; Your Death

This time I feel a relief
For this time, you didn’t hurt only me

I shouldn’t wallow in the knowledge
That others are hurt on my behalf
But it was you who said it all

I would normally imagine
A death worthy of a traitorous king
But alas, this time I can’t
For you don’t mean a thing

You see, my love, it doesn’t agree
It fights you in its sleep
It lies to me when it’s awake
Promising that you can’t hurt me

Dreams of strangling you in the day
Slammed against a wall
With the might of anger - swells
Everything you’ve ever done

So, again, I feel relief
That it won’t be me