Exploitation

Take advantage of my weaknesses..
My mind flow is nocturnal
I'm dealing these memories that burns so internal
It's not surprising that we're doing this again
I'm telling my truth with a piece of paper and a pen
Maybe I'm suffering for all my sins
Unless you find it funny to hurt me again
I gave up on blaming other people
So now I'm just sitting here receiving the recoil
What else could I do?
No one could talk to me, reach me inside my mind besides you
No one will ever understand my ways
So hopefully there will never be another me
I pray to a deaf man, someone who'd understand
However there's no replies from this very man
In my place there's a person that I hate
How much rage I have is impossible to take
Who knows? maybe I'm a fake
Maybe I was just a big fucking mistake
It's too late to correct me though
So now every living day is another day of sorrow
Everyone around me is so miserable
I'm confused, hateful, and some people say ungrateful
So disrespectful, yeah they could be right
Exploit my weaknesses from the day to midnight
I embrace each time I'm passed out at night
I pop so much PM's, I don't even bother anymore to count 'em
I'm not wanting any attention, just mercy
I'm begging for my own death, so come get me