I sit awake in my bed,
My arms wrapped around my legs,
and your face looms in front of my eyes.
I shake my head,
To try and get the image from my mind.
No, this isn't supposed to happen.
Not you.
You're taken by another,
and though it pains me to see that you seems so unhappy,
I cannot feel this way.
I try to guard my heart,
I close my eyes against the tears,
Against the way my heart is yearning for something I cannot have.
Am I jealous of her?
I look in the mirror,
I see Clear blue eyes,
Silky red curls,
Clear skin.
A beauty is many ways.
But alone, and confused.
I don't want to dream of this anymore.
I feel guilty.
How can I look at myself.
She is the one you love,
She is the one who holds your heart.
Yet I feel almost as though you've cheating on her with me,
Though it was simply a dream.
I cannot face her....
I cannot face you...
I feel as though I cannot even face myself.
I am Ashamed.

's to you
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