The Things I Cant Bring Myself To Say

I hate how you say you love me
Only to put it in my face
How you know I love you more
Than I care handle but I still tried.

I hate that I cry about you.
Because I love you still right now
And I hate that you're still so great to me
Even when you hurt me the worst.

I hate that you call me beautiful
But that I wasn't enough for you
Because I tried to hard to believe you
That I couldn't believe myself.

I hate that you say you need me
When it's more like you just want me
So that you dont feel so guilty
When you're with her instead

I hate that you know I'm hurting
And you say you're hurting too
But if you're hurting so much
Why am I not good enough for you?

I love that I can get past this
And even if it only lasts for a moment
I can smile for myself or someone else
And that you don't have all of me

Because I hate that you have my heart
And it's still sitting in your hands
But that my heart was too much
And you wanted someone else.