Why

I was told by a teacher
That you passed away yesterday
She said she was sorry
But it did no good

As I listened to her tell me
That you were gone
The tears began to fall
And sobs came from deep in side me
I fell to me knees
I did not care
When I felt the pain
Of hitting cold hard concrete
My hands flew to my face
Covering my bloodshot eyes
All I could do was cry
And ask why

I did not need to be told how
Because I already knew
You told me so many times
How much you wanted to leave
But I never thought you’d carry through
And take yourself out of this world
I guess I was wrong
And now there’s nothing I can do about it
But sit with tears flowing from my eyes
And ask why

Nobody could move me from the spot where I am
I will stay here and let the tears fall
I do not want to move
I just want to sit and cry
I will not speak
When somebody asks me why I will not move
I do not have the energy to speak
And even if I did
I would not be able to speak
The only thing that would come out of my mouth
Would be loud sobs filled with pain and sorrow
And the question why

Part of me feels responsible
For not being there to stop you
The other part feels nothing
Nothing but pain and sorrow
And the depression that will soon take over my body
The thought of never seeing you again kills me
Part of me wants to talk to somebody
Tell them how I feel and how much I hurt
But I always told you
And now you’re gone
And I can only ask why

Why did you do it
Why didn’t you talk to me
Tall me what was going on
To make you so depressed
To drive you over the edge
Why didn’t you tell me
So that I could at least try to help
So that I could comfort you
And try to make you feel better
Why did you want to leave
When there were so many people
Who loved and cared about you
And why did you have to leave
When I need you most
Why

The world just crumbled around me
No one else can see it
But I can
The world lies in ruins
But yet here I sill sit
The tears still flowing from my eyes
And the sobs still breaking through my sealed lips
And there is no sign of an end
The only person who could stop the tears
Has left me here to cry
The only person who could turn a bad day into a good day
Has left me here under a dark cloud
The only person who I could believe when they said it would be okay
Has left me knowing it never will be okay
So I will stay here and cry
And continue to ask why

I hope that someday soon
I will see you again
And when that day comes
I hope you will be waiting
To take my empty hand
And lead me into the light
And take me to a brighter place
And I hope you will be waiting
To wipe the tears from my eyes
And tell me it will be okay
So that I can once again believe that it will
But until that day comes
I will stay where I am and let the tears fall
And keep asking why

I guess when people told me
How hard it was to lose your best friend
I never really believed them
But now I know how hard it truly is
And how the pain of losing that person
Will never go away
And will leave you in a dark place
Where all you can do
Is cry and ask why