Sister Golden Hair

The song was "Sister Golden Hair"
I couldn't stop the tears from flowing
They stung, burning my cheeks
leaving behind a bitter, salty reminder
of why I was here with each streak
He had been my high school sweetheart
the love of my life
Became pregnant sometime in my senior year
Visions of a fairytale romance running through my head
and though he wasn't ready
I begged him to make me his wife
We married when my daughter was just four months old
My heart flew away
drifting off somewhere way over the moon
I loved him more than life itself
and could not understand my family
when they all said it happened too soon
The first years were just as I had imagined they would be
but then the demons came
booze and drugs were pesky and persistant
and soon stole him away from me
His new found loves quickly gained his full trust
the kids and I were forgotten
life turned from fantasy to nightmare
Hard as I tried, he just wasn't coming back to us
When I said things were bad
that was a huge understatment
Our refrigerator and stomachs went empty
The money I had hidden all gone
nothing left to pay the rent
I did the only thing I knew to do
hoping and praying it would bring him to his senses
I gathered our kids and what little we owned and left
It took all that I had not to look back
or run into his arms returning to our first home
the shoddy little apartment secured by broken fences
He never said a word
and didn't come around to see the kids
Two years later tragedy came
leaving everyone in shock
at the choices he made and what he did
One single shot fired from skilled hands
Hands once prized by the army made the gun
The cold, hard steel he placed to his head
closed his eyes, never flinching, pulled the trigger once
His body slumped onto the couch
Crimson slowly trickled from his ear, it was done
I will never be able to get that song out of my head
it's been fourteen years since I said good bye
The pain is still so raw
My heart refuses to believe
I never saw him...but I know it's true
oh, how I wish it wasn't...I'm so sorry you are dead