Words left unsaid

I'm scared & I can faintly hear a jaded whisper of the little girl inside of me, reminding me of the coward I'm becoming.

I yearn to break the silence with words left unsaid
but an abrupt fear of rejection and alienation towards me causes my mind to force my mouth shut before I make things worse than they already are.

I'm standing on the proverbial edge of sanity, just waiting for that one gust of wind to push me over, while the last of my tears trickle down my cheek.

I want to clarify that my intentions were never anything but pure. You know me better than I know myself & you know I love you. Please overlook my apparent stupidity and carelessness with words. I'd give anything to make it right again.

I'm sorry ..
so sorry <3