Losing Control

I'm losing control of the life I had,
And becoming a menace to everything I knew.
I'm losing everything I wanted so dearly,
And have no idea what to do.

Money is lacking in every direction,
I've absolutely no means to get around.
What I feel inside is just awefully sickening,
Yet I make no sound.

Time held us together for so long,
But given enough will break us apart.
I can only sit back helplessly,
And hope we don't have to part.

I've fought like hell to get where I am,
Just to lose everything I'd built over the years.
To lose everything would be a devastating blow,
And I'd hate to come out in tears.

I'm dying in a way,
That nobody else around me understands.
But instead of getting the help I expected,
I just get a dozen invisible hands.

I sink below the depths of happiness,
Living through a hell I'll never know tomorrow.
This guilt I felt years back,
Now brought about such great sorrow.