Ash

I don't got much of a family and those that are a part of it are not even related by blood.
I don't feel close to my family but I sure would give anything too.
My friends are my heart my boyfriend is my soul and I am ruler of it all.

I have lost a lot and gained only a little,
I have given more then I have and never gotten to much in return.
I am the best friends you could ever have but I could never your worst enemy.
I am strong for reasons not even I know, I am weak more then I let on.

I know I may be weird but I love how I am,
I am confident and sometimes there are moments when i'm not;
But no matter what, I am me; no one can change that.
I may get overly depressed and super happy,
But at lest I let my emotions out and when I don't there's a good reason behind that.

I seem to be the friends my friends can always rely on,
always talk to and sometimes cry on and I don't mind at all.
I seem to not get out much in my life,
or do the things I want and make the kind of money I wish I could, but I sure am proud of what I got.

Yes i know I get down and hate that I don't have a job, hate that I don't have the money to party or whatever I want;  
but I sure try my hardest to live in those moments when I get the chance to blow off.
There is a lot more to me then I probably could put in this poem,
but I think you can figure it out on your on, and if you can't or don't want to that's ok;
I don't need you to anyway.