I hate it When...

I hate it when you say you'll call
then blow me off at night.
I hate it when you prove I'm wrong.
I hate it when we fight.

I hate it when you walk away
and leave me left behind.
I hate it when you look at me
and know somethings on my mind.

I hate it when I look at you
and I'm drawn into your eyes.
I hate it when you call me beautiful
it makes me want to cry.

I hate the way you make me feel
even worse when you're not around.
I hate how I always think of you
and how our hearts are bound.

I hate it here cause I'm all alone
and you're not by my side.
I hate how much I love you so
that tears rain from my eyes.

I hate my self for standing there
and just looking at your bus.
I hate how my heart broke that day
and shattered into dust.

I hate how empty my life has become,
how I'm just barely getting by.
I hate how much I've cried over you,
my eyes are running dry.

I hate how the world stopped turning
the day you moved out of town.
I hate how lost I feel inside
Like my worlds been turned upside down.

I hate how I can't sleep at night
and how dependant I became.
I hate how I can't hold you close
and how you kept my nightmares away.

I hate how protected I felt
when I was wrapped up in your arms.
I hate how hard  I fell for you
and your smile and your charm.

I hate how I'm attached to you
And wishing you would call,
But most of all I hate the fact
that I could never hate you.

Not now,

Not ever,

Not even at all.