Thank You, Loretta

Here alone again,
Here alone always,
Why can't you be here?
Why am I left on my own?

Don't you see all this hurt?
All this pain that I am in,
Why can't you be here to take,
It way from me?

Like you did all those years,
Ago, where you made those nasty,
Nightmares run away with your,
Funny jokes, made the monsters,
Under my bed, run back to their scary,
World, where they scared your angel.

Now all I can hope is that,
Your watching from above,
Watching down on me.
And my only hope is,

That I am making you proud,
But I know in your eyes,
That I was always a winner,
Even at the times that I,

Didn't believe that I was,
Where I doubted myself,
In everything,
But you always was there to,

Pick me up from the ground,
When I didn't feel like it,
When all I wanted was to sit and crumble,
And watch the world from where I sat.

Because I thought I was better off that way,
To watch from the side lines,
Watch as the others play.
And I sat and watched.

Because I was never good at anything,
But you always made me see
That I was always good at something.
Even when I never wanted to see it.

This is why, you'll hold
The dearest part of my heart.
You were not realy my mother,
But in my eyes you were.

I love you mamaw!
I miss you so much,
I can't believe that,
Its been almost three years.

These past three years have been,
The hardest, because no one understands,
Me like you did,
Because I am you.

Because you were my world,
My life, and forever will be,
Somedays I feel you,
Here with me.

And I'm glad you are,
Here with me,
Because if you wasn't I'd
Be someone far worse than here.

Thank you for taking care of me,
For the biggest part of your life,
When you had already raised three of your own,
Thank you, so much.

For just being my mamaw,
Just being you.
I remember everything,
I remember the fights.

But you loved me anyways,
And I loved you,
But god do I miss you now,
I miss you so much.

Thank you.