[problems]

i cant sleep
i eat less & less
my body aches
my minds a racing blur

these images
clutter my tired mind
flashbacks
secrets
filled with pain
make them stop

i cant take care of myself
my sleepless nights grow in numbers
as my meals decrease in size
stress aches my body all over
i'm ready to crumble, defeated

i cant take it anymore
my mind's gonna explode
my body will soon be dust
flashbacks mesh together now

a trusted adult
tryin to manipulate me...
an ex of mine
having his way & raping me...
my mother
not trying to help
blaming it on me somehow...
ridiculed, mocked, ignored
used, abused, tossed aside...
make it all stop

my throat is closing
tears flow down my face
ringing in my ears
i see only black now


no one can help me it seems
i'm heading for destruction
& i want it to happen
i want to be free of it all
please
just make it all go away