Once upon a timeI had the love of a perfect man who made it easy and acceptable to love him. He was so perfect for me and my way of life.We melded in a way I had always thought impossible based on my past experiences.
Coming from a very religious family, I let them convince me I was living in sin. I left this man to save my soul (I thought) and returned to my ex-husband and kids. I do love them all, but my kids are now grown and my husband and I are like roommates so I gave it all up to be alone.
Last night I read a passage in the Bible that said where your treasure is there is where your heart is and another passage that said we are judged by our hearts. I guess I'm in sin no matter what I do. If I could I'd take my chances with my true love again. At least, that would almost be worth the coming pain.
I have discovered that I am weak. If my soul's eternal place wasn't so important to me, I think I would end it all. I'm so miserable without him. He has found someone else so I just pray every day to find a way to forget about the time we had together. It was the best years of my life.
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I'm a terrible person, so I'm going to give unsolicited advice. Your love is ALWAYS beautiful. Like Alice Walker said, "I think it pisses God off when you walk by the colour purple in a field and don't notice it." Maybe he's happy with his new love, but you have every right to expect love in your own life. Maybe not with him anymore, but it will find you and you have to be ready for it.
Now that I'm climbing down off my soapbox....
I loved the way this read like a letter you wrote to yourself. Maybe a journal entry, or maybe a note you wish you could tell everyone in the world about.
Thank you so much for this confession.
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