When do i get to mean....

As my man you should know my likes
And dislikes by now
You should know how I m feeling
And what to do to make things right
It seems as if I give and give
What am I getting?
You even seem to want to take the only thing have from you back…. Love
Where do you want this to go?
I want great things baby, I expect you to do great things
I expect us to do great things
I am so hurt by the way you really feel about me
You say things
That hurt so much
I wish you would forgive me or tell me that you can’t
And we’ll make decisions from there
But no you just wait and throw it in when you feel
It will help to get your point across
I hate myself
I hate me
I have no reason to be proud of me
I am not special
And the person who is suppose to stick by my side and help me build me up
Is bringing me down
Hurting me
Forgetting me
Regretting me
Why
When am I going to get some love?
Someone to tell me I am beautiful once in a while, while looking in my eyes and not at my ass or tits
I need to feel needed
But I have needs to
This isn’t fair
I cry and have sleepless nights but you are ok
And the next day the question is “what’s wrong”
Are you serious?
What about baby I was worried about you? I hope you are ok
What about saying every once in a while
Baby I know that you sometime I don’t understand your feelings
But I love you and I think you are amazing
When do I get to be fantastic outside the bedroom?
When do I get to matter?
Why does it seem that I am there for you but when time comes and I need you to be
Sentimental for a moment you disappear (not literally)
But you just disappear
I need love