i can't promise you a happy ending

what is your favorite verb?

it's hard for me to pick just one. maybe, LIVING. because what else is there to do?


where did your name come from?

it came from the bible (2 Kings 15:33), hebrew meaning "taken possesion of" or "married", my name is from my great-great grandmother who gave birth to a child who broke both her hips, from my father decided that would be my name... even if he would never remember how to spell it.


what is the difference(s) between who you are and who you wish you were?

i dont really wish to be anything else right now. maybe i wish i wasn't here anymore, and i kind of wish i knew what the fuck to do with myself about 85% of the time. but i'm happy and i feel good and i feel like things are really going to fucking work out for once in my life. so maybe things could just pause for a moment and lemme catch my breath. thanks.



what are your insecurities?

all my insecurities run deep. and they're generally all in my head. if you're close to me you'll realize them. i dont even like talking about them outloud cause they make me feel weak. like, i should be over this shit by now, don'tcha think?


why can't you sleep?

it's wintertime. it's cold. everything is dying.
i need to find a more physical home.


is your regret fading?

i dont regret much of anything. i think everything happened for some reason or another. i'm still alive. everything in my past made me who i am today, who i will be in my future. i can only look forward now.



how conditional are you morals?

my morals aren't traditional. i do what i want, and say fuck the rest. happiness comes first. how conditional does that sound?


what do you say to yourself that makes it alright?

i dont have to say anything to myself to make things seem alright. i know that everything will work out. yeah, life isn't always easy and things aren't always fair. but telling myself some sugar coated lie isn't going to make things alright, it's probably going to make things harder. i like the truth, the hurt the ache the bad times because they make the good things, seem that much better.


are you in love?

i think i could be, if you give me enough time. because if i could ever fall in love with anyone, i think it would be with him.


are you in love with more than one person?

no. i dont think i've ever been "in love" with anyone.


how often do you want to be someone else?

@#$%! why can't people just accept themselves already?


can you wink?

i don't know if i've ever really tried to do an effective wink...


do you flirt with guys/girls you would never date?

i have in the past. but i don't generally like to date. so... whatever. not sorry.


are you currently leading someone on?

i dont see how i could be. the only guy i talk to like that is the only guy i want to be with in any manor. so... hey



do you lie about trivial things just for the hell of it?

no. i dont like lies, ever.


do you believe in karma?

probably more than i should.


do humans have souls?

it's hard for me to imagine souls. at the same time i dont like to think that we dont have them. i believe in the good in everyone. humans made up souls. but who am i to say what we do and don't have?


are there people in your family you secretly don't love?

once i love you, i love you forever. but being blood doesn't make you family.


are you jealous?

no.



do you avoid looking in mirrors?

sometimes more than others. but you only live once. and i've got this guy in my life that likes the way i look. so why don't i?



what is a name you consider beautiful?

but all names are beautiful in themselves. i have a deep longing for these names: (boys) Judas. Samson. Titus. Max. Rafael. Ezekiel. Dro. (girls) Heaven. Haven. Nirvana. Vice. Lucky. and so on.


do you read to escape your own life?

i read because the english language turns me on.


do you ever forget who you are?

i have, before. but now i know, i'm all i've got.
and there's nothing more valuable than having someone in your life that reminds you of who you are.