Should I...?

Everything I used to fight for,
Is gone...
It's up to me to get it back...
But would it be the best thing to do...?

I don't know how to deal with this,
It's not easy to think about,
When everything comes rushing back to me,
It makes me forget everything else...

Sometimes I miss it,
Sometimes wonder what the right thing to do is...
Don't know why I can't do things,
Without thinking them through so much...
Wish I could,

Should I stay how I am...?
Should I come running back...?
Should I leave everything behind...?
Or should I bring it all back...?