I never abandoned

You don't see
You don't even know me
It's been such a long time
Since wev'e agreed on anything
I'm full of urgency and frustration
Growing into this anger and honesty
This is getting old,way past it's used by date
I never abandoned and now I don't know what I'm fighting for
I realize you were never like me
I ran to high ground before  it could swallow me whole
Don't believe in getting pushed and pulled
Foreign lights don't mean it's a home
Youv'e done what you could for me
Now I face the world on my own
I split off and am finding my way
We  all live in our own worlds from time to time
But things are now put on the firing line
Wasn't about to build my life in a sinking hole
Had to find security and stable ground
We see two different meanings to control
I won't conform to the rules
Just because it feels warm and safe
Doesn't mean it ain't crumbling under your feet
You won't see the consequences of your beliefs
I'm not saying that I'm perfect or always right
Spent a few weeks learning how to stay sober
Just to stay sane and collected
The truth is that it's hard to feel connection with you
Iv'e spent long nights thinking about how I could tell you
What you don't wanna hear or conceive
So it just stays playing over in my head
Until I become numb to it all
I wish I couldn't feel for you anymore
You won't believe so what's the point?
There's no justice and no relief
I never abandoned you,I walked away to survive
It was you after all who made the choice to stay
Because of your oh so amazing faith
It's such a shame you don't see
That you were blinded and fooled
Into this tiny controlled  life