Mistake

What have I done?
I've destroyed it.
What a fool I am.
What I had,
was glorious,
those close to me.
They loved me.
And what did I do?
Leave.
Abandon.
What a disgrace I am
To do such a thing
I regret what Ive done
Every moment
Im so foolish
I threw away those who matter most
I cannot believe myself
I was so strung up
In love
That I let them go
What is love anyway?
Was it really love?
Did I really love him?
Or did I just need someone to hold me?
Because no one else would.
I want to die.
They will not forgive me
I would not
Why should they?
What's the point?
I do not belong
I should leave
But where?
Ive already been to hell and back
And it was terrible.
True horror.
All the tears shed
Oh, the tears.
How I miss you,
please forgive me.
I know it's difficult to believe
but please
Im sorry
I truly am.
I cannot begin to show you how sorry I am.
Please.
Forgive me. . . .