Tried it once
or twice
Gave myself
without feeling,
sex without passion
eyelids, unshuckable
Chilled my blood,
numbed my mind,inhaling the warm
exhale
of my non-lover
To pretend
a friend
is a toy,
a plastic pleasure
A touch means
nothing,
A taste
easily forgotten
We were simply
animals,
not humans
with a conscience
heart or soul
The benefit;
loneliness
a self denial, creating
a vast emptiness
among friends











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