& your girlfriend's at home, she's all alone and if that's not love, what is?

what is your favorite verb?
i like actions.
my favorite verb changes each instant.
do people really have a favorite  verb, favorite song, favorited minute of the day?

where did your name come from?
a book. i've read it, but i have yet to understand why.

what is the difference(s) between who you are and who you wish you were?
i want to improve andf grow as a person, but i am me and that is exactly who i want to be.

what are your insecurities?
some are phobias, some are just knowing the truth. mostly, though, they are just slightly inconvenient things that can be fixed and i am actually glad i have experienced them, because if i were never afrauid or upset, then i would be left defenseless against any injustice and loss.

why can't you sleep?
last night i was thinking about death. late enough that i managed to sleep after my alarm clock was doine and i'm now skipping first lecture for that reason. ... well, at least i'm over the time i couldn't sleep over upsetting someone years ago.

is your regret fading?
it fades when i'm busy or happy or solving other issues, but so far it's always come back to strike me in the face. i think a sharp boomerang would've done a cleaner job, but hey! it's a game, part of being human.

how conditional are your morals?
are morals not supposed to be conditional, contextual?
i don't know, honestly. i haven't been in extreme situations. i may be a hypocrite but i am hiding that well from myself.

what do you say to yourself that makes it alright?
there is a bright side to everything.
& there is; you just have to watch it from a different angle.
though, granted, sometimes that one angle is upside down and almost makes your neck break.
it's worth it.

are you in love?
yes yes yes yes yes yes yes X oo
i get butterflies in my stomach very rarely anymore...
but hell, am i lucky to be this in love after over four years!

are you in love with more than one person?
my seemingly unconditioned morals say noooooo.
really, as Amy Macdonald says, what is love?

how often do you want to be someone else?
does wanting to be a super heroine count? not someone in particular...
heck. i haven't wanted to be someone else in years; in fact, even years ago, i would sometimes wonder who else i wanted to be and pick only using reason.
i am fine.

can you wink?
nooooo

do you flirt with guys/girls you would never date?
no. I'm too lazy to do that.

are you currently leading someone on?
myself.

do you lie about trivial things just for the hell of it?
no. when i lie, it'/s not trivial and it's not for the hell of it.

do you believe in karma?
i've yet to decide. in my life... if there were karma, i would be the most miserable and the happiest person alive. i don't know if i want it to exist.

do humans have souls?
humans have psyche.
cognition, emotions, imagination, volition, personality.
whatmoredoyouwant???
...
actually icf i think of it, immortality would be sweet, but... hey, you can't have it all!

are there people in your family you secretly don't love?
i would put that question as, "are there people in your family you secretly love?" because i think love is unconditional; when i love i may really, really, really want (and ask) something from my loved one, but that something does not become more important than the person. in my family though... i think they sheltered me too much for me to love them that way. i feel uncomfortable sharing affection with them. i often need a hug, but would rather have one online from a stranger if the alternative is asking my relatives. is that love? i like making them smile, buying them gifts, sharing jokes, but i don't feel that kind of love for them which i have felt for friends or people i was in love with. is it wrong if i feel my love for someone i sort of know is more pure than that for my parents? i just feel conditioned to love them... like if i say i don't i will look like an insensitive weirdo... but there's more to love, no? what is love?

are you jealous?
sometimes. sometimes it sickens me when i speak to someone and they share they joy and in a corner of my mind i only wish i had the kind of love, the kind of friends, the kind of willpower they have. but it doesn't make me do mean things so i think i'm okay.

do you avoid looking in mirrors?
noooo. in my apartment, i have four mirrors and it's amazing! & combing my hair has never been so easy and pleasant!

what is a name you consider beautiful?
Pearl. I would consider naming a daughter that... it is a beautiful name and means so much. There is so much love, perseverance, beauty, and devotion to it.

do you read to escape your own life?
nah. i read to live something greater than i can. i read to relax. i read to learn. i read to relate. i read to understand. & last and least, i read 'cause my professors make me!

do you ever forget who you are?
i haven't had retrograde amnesia yet. that is the kind of thing i prefer to only experience from books.
otherwise, i've never really asked myself who i was. i have a name, hobbies, feelings, personalkity traits, a body, an occupation, likes and dislikes, principles, ... i know all that and so far, so good.