I followed my heart & God's directions
believe that I belonged,
with the sickest of the sick.
I believed that this is where I could do my best
but what good am I,
if I cry everytime my patients die.
I came so close to walking away
my heart has had its full of death
but a 22 year old dying man asked me for a hug.
and that's why, I decided to stay....
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I have been having a hard time dealing with the everyday death of the patients were I work. It is so sad to watch them during their last days. It is beginning to be more than I can bear. but everytime one of my patients ask for a hug, or when they reach for my hand and softly say " thank you for all you do " that somehow make it all worth while.
Please tell me what you think
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My Dear Twinsy:
This tugs at the heartstrings. I know how you feel though... I have been there myself.. You really did a great job on this one. I love it.
This goes to show you, what a big heart you have. You really did a great job on it! I love it!
and love
Nyetta
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Another beautiful and meaningful write you've penned. This was short but filled with a lot of emotions. I can really relate to your words. Working in the medical field for almost ten years can be such a stressful and tedious job. But, it's the people and the patients there that make you get up in the morning and want to do it all over again. That hug request, thank you very much, and you'll never know how much you mean to me from a patient can turn everything around in an instant. It's great that you feel the way that you do everyday. It takes a very special person to be in your line of work and it's plain to see that you love what you do! Lovely thoughts and emotions you've penned here my dear! Keep up the wonderful work!
Jeremy0826
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Hi Jeremy,
thank you so much for your very nice comment.
they say hugs are good for the soul, i believe
that cause i've seen it with my own eyes. my
patients are so dear to my heart, and it does
break my heart when they pass away. you
are a precious friend.
loveandblessings2u & yours always
joyce
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As you know, I can so fully relate
It IS hard to watch someone you take care of pass away; I've done this many times now but it is NEVER easy and the pain NEVER lessens
It is somewhat comforting to know that you've made their last days as comfortable and as bearable as possible...
You are an angel and I love you dearly, sweet soul!
Many hugs,
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Sandy,
it is so nice to have someone who can really understand
all that i go through, how heartbreaking, yet rewarding
my job is. thank you so much for the comment and for
being such a dear friend.
loveandblessings2u & yours always
love ya,
joyce
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Life and death
We look at these two words and relate happiness and sorrow with them, but it is not as easy as that in real life. While some fear death, there are others that welcome the passing of this life with great anticipation of the one on the other side. Though there is sorrow for the loved ones left behind, we should be happy for the one that is moving into the next realm. Sis, I know you believe in God. Because of that you must step back and look at what you do from another perspective. You are there to hold your patients hand and to say goodbye! Those are the two most important things one can do for another. Your calling puts you in a place that could only be done by the most precious of God's children. I am honored to be able to call you my Sister. The tears you shed are proof that you are a loving person, but do not think for one moment that those years are a sign of weakness. They are a sign of a great heart! A loving heart! I only wish that I have someone that cares as much as you, when I leave this world. You are strong and remember...God would not bring you to it, if God thought, even for a moment, that you could not weather the storm! I love you Sis, Bubba ( Ps: the write is very emotional and I felt every word!)
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My Dear Bubba,
i honestly love you,
never met you in person,
but to me you really are like a brother,
always there when i need you must.
thank you so much for such a up lifting
comment. you made me feel better.
loveandblessings2u & yours always
love your sister joyce
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Beautiful poem my dear friend. It is clear why God lead you to these patients, they need you, you bring comfort to them and their families, perhaps bring them closer to God, to heaven. It is your gracious giving heart that blesses them and hurts you. I can't imagine dealing with all you do, even for an hour. Perhaps you are supposed to be there for a short time, not neccessarily for you, but your patients. I pray for your peace and strength and God speaks to you, opens a door in which you know you must enter!
Love you my friend,
Michelle
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Michelle, you are truly a beautiful friend.
we talk often and share so much. i think
you know me better than most. we have
talked about my heartache dealing with
my patients so many times. your caring
words and understanding always leaves
me feeling a lot better. i am so thankful
to God for bringing you into my life.
loveandblessings2u & yours always
love ya,
joyce
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Joyce..so few could handle the vocation you hold..It takes extra strength not only physically, but spiritually, mentally and emotionally to encourage and minister to the suffering, and dying...As Mother Theresa you have the calling. But you are human...Sometimes it gets more than you can bear...
This dear man that cried out for you..I pray for him, and you..It is shallow to say that...Only God you and he know what it is like..Bravo for this write! and 
Rosemary
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thank you so much rosemary
your comment meant the world to me.
i'm no where near as great as Mother Therea,
wish i was, then maybe i would have a better
way of dealing with such a heartbreaking job.
your comment touched my heart.
loveandblessings2u & yours always
love ya,
joyce
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