Without you, nothing makes sense anymore
thousands of questions go unanswered
i should cry until i can no longer breathe
but i can't even get that right
my soul has been torn into pieces
this tattered heart is no longer mine
my body can't register this amount of pain
that only multiplies with the passing time
they always say "you'll get over it"
"there's a thousand fish in the sea"
i don't want anyone else
i don't even want you back with me
i want to disappear,
fall from the face of the earth
i never want to hear your name again
i never want to experience this hurt
i hear my name called, a touch on the arm
i turn expecting to see your face
each time feel my heart shatter
when it's not you in their place
i find myself hating
everything and anything i can
i find myself fearing
that it's the only thing i am
i didn't even know i loved you
this emptiness the only proof
life before you was bearable, easy at times
but clouded over the only truth
my world would shatter once i left
my soul would crumble inside of me
broken and unmendable festering within
i underestimated your power over me
now all that's left, the only emotion i have
uncontrollable hate, the agony eat me raw
i don't believe i can feel anything else anymore
i don't even want to feel anything at all
i want to forget this love
let me cut the cancer from deep within
the beating sickness beneath my ribs
I'll die inside, but you'll never have me again
Comments
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So incredibly raw and almost dripping with betrayal. I unfortunately know this feeling all to well and while I cant promise you that it get better (I'm still waiting), I can promise you'll get vivid and viciously gorgeous writing like this from it.
Great write sweetheart.
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Thank you so much for the comment and your opinion on the poem!
Its upsetting to know that a person can feel like this (the way we do).
But we just have to live with it for now.
Keep fighting hon!
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