I Owe You

I touch you and you shiver
you start to turn away.
But stop your mind now racing
what to do so you can stay.
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Touching me it bores you
it's a turn off through and through.
There is nothing to make you want me
pretending is getting hard to do.
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You've tried weed and porno
trying to alter your sight and mind.
But nothing makes me better
It wouldn't  help if you were blind.
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I try to show you that I want you
I try to be something a little more.
But all you see is I fail you
ending up turned off continuously bored.
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I hate what I now am to you
what I see reflected in your eyes.
The person you can't stand to touch
and you're starting to despise.
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I never wanted to be like this
never wanted to be for you this bad.
I thought that I could love you enough
I wouldn't be the worst thing you ever had.
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But time has proven me oh so wrong
I cannot be worth your time.
I cannot be the one you want
I don't deserve you to be mine.
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I'm sorry that I failed you
for all that I've done so wrong.
I wanted to be so much more
but I've been a mistake now all along.