I think I'm

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Never truly knew what it meant
to feel alive.
I just began

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but why did I want to die?
So many tears stream down my face
so many heart broken songs to be played
and yet why do I deny myself the right
to cry?

I don't like these

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They are so unpredictable
And they show my pain.
I don't want to show my decay
it's too late to say goodbye
yet its too early to smile.

N.I.G.H.T.M.A.R.E.S

control my fate,
and

P.A.I.N

Illuminates the way.
Why do I feel so down
when I was so high before?

Look at the scars I create
the emptiness feels real doesn't it?
Why can I find so many ways
to find the path of self-destruction?

I know you think I could care less about me.
But i really do care.
But I need help, I can't quit
it's an unholy addiction.

Struggling mightily against the past,
I see that face in my dreams.
I just want you to imagine,
take the ride with me.

'Cause whenever I close my eyes,
and the tears subside,
I realize
That i am not alone in this battle.

I just need the strength to

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