you laughed at me,
when i cried,
when i put all my effort in,
and i tried.
you say you want your space from me,
and said you wouldnt see me,
unless i went to couseling.
I have depression, & feel neglection
you're never there, im always scared,
to even see you or talk to you.
My sisters are before me,
i cry every night.
a daughter needs her mother,
someone to hold her tight,
when i've had a bad day, or just need a hug.
I've tried living with you, that's such a mess.
you got angry at me for an accomplishment.
You came out to my town,
dad got to see me twin, you didn't want to see me,
so i was without.
i tried so hard to impress you,
i want to try and be with you,
but i've given, this is too hard.
where are you?
because here i am.
What did you think? please tell me (:
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I like this, and can definitely relate. My biological-father always preferred my younger sister to me, no matter how hard I tried to impress him. I was constantly seeking his approval, though it was obvious he'd never accept me, no matter what I did. The best example was quite recent; he was furious when I made the decision to leave university (for personal reasons), and that was somehow a bigger deal than my sister telling him that (at 20 years old) she was pregnant... Some people's priorities are a little out-of-order, I daresay.
I feel for you here, and even though I don't know you, reading this made me want to hug you. I hope that writing helps you to feel better; to understand that it's not your fault, and to move forward. This person is toxic, and s/he is not worthy of you or your time. If you ever need to talk, please let me know.
Laura
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