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1.) What kind of music do you like? Why?

I like a little bit of everything..I'm a born and raised country fan, so that's where my country background comes in. I tend to be more addicted to singers who can sing with intense emotion in their voices and really unique and eloquent song lyrics because it moves me more.

2.) Do you ever feel it's necessary to hurt other people? Why/why not?

Well, I used to hurt the people who hurt me first (specifically when it came to guys). Now I don't know anymore because I've built up such a strong concrete wall, it's impossible for anybody to tip it over. I don't like hurting my friends, so I do my best not to.

3.) What makes you smile?

Anything I can truly and fully appreciate; driving with my windows down, sun-roof open on sunny days blasting music with my friends is definitely at the top of the list though.

4.) What are your goals? Why?

This might sound weird, but I don't really have goals. Of course I want to be successful and everything in the future, but I don't just focus on one or two specific aspects of my life to fulfill. I let "whatever happens, happen" and take it from there. I'm a lot less stressed and uptight when I live this way. I'm the type of person who always has to be going two + places at once.

5.) Do you hate anyone? Why/why not?

No. I do not have it in me to hate anybody, even though I have more than earned my right to hate a certain person. But hate makes people ugly and this world is messed up enough as it is.

6.) What makes you cry?

Frustration. Anxiety. Wishing I could mean just a little bit more than second best. Hearing about how mean people can be to animals. Sometimes I still cry when I think about my cousin Jeff [he was killed in a car accident 4 years ago] because I'm so lost without him and I reallyreally wonder if he would be proud of who I've grown to be, and I wish I knew what he'd say to me if he were still here, about everything in my life.

7.) When was the last time you felt beautiful? Why'd you feel that way?

I feel beautiful every day, and I'm not saying that because I think highly of myself or because I think I'm incredibly attractive since I always have a bunch of guys "chasing" after me. But I'm confident, and I know how to carry myself internally, which makes it a lot easier to be okay with the way I look. And even if my hair is a mess that day, I focus on something else, and I think, "okay, so maybe my hair is really frizzy and limp today, but I really like this outfit I randomly paired together", or something like that.

8.) What are your opinions on sex?

I don't think there's anything wrong with it as long as you're careful about it. If you're going around sleeping with a bunch of people and you don't use any type of protection and you get pregnant, I don't think you have the right to complain or get an abortion or anything like that. I hate whiney people. I want to tell them to just shut up and deal with it and step up to their actions.

On a different note, for me personally, sex doesn't equal love in any way. I don't feel like I need to be in love with someone to have sex with them. I think the only reason sex is such a sensitive and dramatic topic is because people make it that way.

9.) How 'bout religion?

Religion honestly gives me a headache. I respect and am even slightly interested in people and their religious beliefs, as long as they don't force me to believe them or disrespect the way I think. However, again for me personally, it's more important for me to have faith in other things, such as my friends, my relationships with the people in my life, getting through rough times, etc. Because that kind of faith is more real to me than religious faith could ever be.

10.) What is safe?

I don't really know how to explain it. Safe is someone lying next to you in the dark. Safe is knowing that even though you're living on your own now in college, you'll always have a room to come back to. And your mom/dad will always be there, in case you can't push yourself out of a sticky situation. It's letting down your guard and not worrying about how time is going to eventually just stop and being capable of hugging someone every day. And for one moment, hour, day, you can just be.

11.) What's the most important thing to you? Why?

My relationships with people (not just romantic ones) and knowing that most of my friends can and WILL come to me if they need to talk, about mundane things or about really personal, scary, deep things. And they also automatically know that I won't think or judge; I'll just listen and support them from the start. I like knowing that people trust me and feel comfortable talking to me, about everything and anything.

12.) Are you happy?
For the most part, yes. I think happiness is definitely something you can control, in a way. If you are in a place that is making you miserable, for example, you should do something about it instead of moping around. Happiness also has a lot to do with attitude. Because if you've been screwed over a bunch of times and you start thinking that everyone is crappy and untrustworthy, then you're probably going to easily fall into a cynical spiral, and that's not going to get you anywhere. And even if something really bad happens, I honestly truly believe that something good will eventually evolve from that horrible thing.

13.) What's your worst fear? Why?

I have three top fears, but I'd have to say my biggest fear ever is getting into a car accident, with me driving and having any of my friends/anyone who is important to me in the car as well.

Because my cousin was killed at age 17.

Because my ex boyfriend got into a really bad car accident and almost killed 4 other people.

Because it happens every day to normal people, but especially to teens/young adults.

Because people out there on the road are freaking crazy and they always rushrushrush and they put on their brakes at green lights and blow stop signs and don't use their turning signals and think they're invincible because they're "good" at driving recklessly/driving fast/driving fast and recklessly in fancy cars.

But guess what?

YOU'RE NOT.

14.) What fulfills you?

Everything that I live for: friends/family, my pets, sunshine, my poetry, nature. Anything that I find even the slightest fascination in.