In the Company of Sleeping Pills and Razor Blades

thanks for finaly showing me your true colors i was a fool for believing in you and for thinking you could ever understand where I'm coming from i knew you would never accept me after you knew all my thoughts and secrets i knew you would never accept me, scars and all, i have become so numb trying to say goodbye to you, my soul is sleeping, i wanted you to be the one who saves me i wanted it to be you am i that unappealing or is it because my real writs are now visible to you, and you know about every bad thought and suicide attempt, oh how wonderful it feels to walk down the halls knowing everyone is staring they know everything i told you in secrets i knew i never should have trusted you

CHORUS:
you have me loosing myself and all my thoughts, I'm trying to forget about you in the company of sleeping pills and razor blades isn't this exactly where you wanted me? waiting for love in a dead end relationship waiting for you, waiting for me, just waiting, always waiting, but now I'm done waiting you cant reverse what has been done i've taken one to many pills and lost so much blood, you'll open the door to find me on the bathroom floor in a pool of my own blood, pill bottles scattered all over the floor its not a pretty scene but you'll find me in my attempt to forget you in the company of sleeping pills and razor blades oh sleeping pills and razor blades

you might have thought it was no big deal, you thought i could live with it, well you thought wrong all your secrets i'll take to the grave, i just wish you cared enough to do the same, but you never thought of anybody but yourself you never cared about anything else and now I'm the one that has to live with the mistakes you've made... in the company of sleeping pills and razor blades... i guess I'm choosing a different path

CHORUS:
you have me loosing myself and all my thoughts, I'm trying to forget about you in the company of sleeping pills and razor blades isn't this exactly where you wanted me? waiting for love in a dead end relationship waiting for you, waiting for me, just waiting, always waiting, but now I'm done waiting you cant reverse what has been done i've taken one to many pills and lost so much blood, you'll open the door to find me on the bathroom floor in a pool of my own blood, pill bottles scattered all over the floor its not a pretty scene but you'll find me in my attempt to forget you in the company of sleeping pills and razor blades oh sleeping pills and razor blades

i wish i could put that mask back on covering up all my emotions i wish i could go back to pretending I'm okay when I'm really screaming to get out of here on the inside, i wish i could be happy again but i cant... i don't remember how to get it back no matter how hard i try day by day to look happy and normal on the outside i cant change the way i feel on the inside

(REPEAT CHORUS)

I'm trying so hard to forget about you in the company of sleeping pills and razor blades, isn't this exactly where you wanted me, waiting for love in a dead end relationship... oh its never going to happen, I'm going in the company of sleeping pills and razor blades