Can you imagine?

Can you even imagine?

Being relieved that you somehow managed to get thru yet another day of hell, because every day is exactly the same, total misery 24/7? Over the counter pain medications just not doing the trick? Not able to be happy or even content for just a mere moment in between antibiotic changes? A doctor recommending you to a mental therapist? Just crying and praying-using every bit of mental strength you can to cope with so many terrible symptoms that are there all the time?

Can you even imagine?

After not being hit by a truck, waking up and feeling like you have? Exhausted even though in 2 days you have slept 48 hours? A doctor telling you that you just want attention and you’re making it up? Forgetting your siblings name mid through a conversation? Everything hurting, your joints feeling like they are on fire? Not remembering your closest friends?

Can you even imagine?

A doctor telling you that you just want medication to get high? People telling you that you’re just depressed or you’re sick in the head? Walking into a room with urgency just to forget why? Friends telling you deep secrets because they know you’ll forget them? Having the ability to lose 100+ things a day, followed by an inability to find them, although 80% of them are exactly where they have been for years?

Can you even imagine?

Every joint in your body screaming? Becoming tired just from waking up? Developing photosensitivity and dyslexia? Getting motion sickness sitting still? A whole shelf in the refrigerator filled with medications? Waking up screaming, stressed and hurting- then realizing you never fell asleep?

Can you even imagine?

After all this finally finding a doctor that believes you and finds out what’s wrong, only to let you know the treatment can take years? Avoiding the IV treatment as long as you can because you’re scared of a catheter that would run up your arm and into your heart?

But can you even imagine that this all was caused by a single bite of a poppy seed sized tick?

Or better yet, that it all started as a biological weapon?