Still Dreaming .

I'm exhausted ; and frankly quite tired of pretending that I don't miss you. Every time I close my eyes , your sweet face drowns out the darkness. My heart is pounding your name through my veins , and with each fraction of a second that passes , my head swells with intoxicating memories. But I grin and bare it ; showing no visible signs on the surface that on the inside , I am crumbling.



Lately , I've caught myself dreaming of you ; and I'd be lying if I said it didn't faze me. It seems like every song I hear reminds me of you , and it's only becoming more constant. I press repeat and indulge myself in another moment long passed , cringing each pleading tear away.



I'm pathetic , I know ; but I can't help the fact that my lungs have begun collapsing from lack of oxygen. You are the air that I breathe , and my deprivation is beginning to make me light-headed. I can't seem to inhale a single solid breath. But I promise I'll keep trying.



You made me feel immortal , but it seems my internal clock got ahead of itself ; because now it feels like I'm dieing. I've been lying comatose for what seems like forever , and I was so convinced the light in your eyes would stir something in me long lost. But it seems like I've forsaken myself once again , because with each smile I fake , the remnants of my true happiness fades away ; and with each forced burst of laughter , my treasured memories wither.



My life has become a dull game of charades. With each added day I discover a new facet of my mask , and it's becoming easier and easier to forget who I really am. Your voice has always been enough to fight off the demons that chain me. Will you scream my name into this darkness and shatter the impostor that has taken over my every move ?



Because
I need
You.
















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