Dear Bella. (Noone needs to know)

Dear Bella,
                  Today was bad, why are you still fucking with my head? Have you not done enough damage already? This time Bella don't tell me what to do, its obvious I cant make it through. The death of me is the exsistance of you. I wish you would leave, but you refuse to go. You tell me its okay, because you taught me all the right words to say. Your a liar. LIAR LIAR! How the fuck could this be okay? Look at what you made me. I fell for your lies. You don't know me, all you know is the monster you created. All this shit you made me do, and yes I blame you, Bel. I'm waking up leaning over the toilet. I feel so dirty, you make me feel so unbeautiful. I have shower after shower, trying to wash away every trace of you. But the moment I finally think I'm clean, there you are. Right by my side again, telling me how fat I look today. I know you hate me, you made it clear. False friends is all we are. You pushed me in the wrong direction, and somewhere along the way I lost all controle. Your my worst habbit. Your not the only one whose insucure, Bel. This is our life. No mine, yours, mine, yours. Does it matter at all? You know you have me, it's like I'm your puppet and your my master. All the times I let you win, walk all over me, and hurt me again. I was weak, but I'm done with you. It wont be easy.      - Paige.

Dear Paige,
                  Go on, I dare you. You will never be rid of me, your too weak and I'm under your skin. I'll always be at the back of your mind to remind you of calories. You know darling, your nothing, your worthless in my eyes. Everytime we talk, I love to watch you come undone. You always come back though, because I always seem to understand. Noone needs to know I'm back for good though, it can be our little secret. It was just another bad day, but don't worry. You will always have me, and soon everyone will be asleep. I know your just dying to play with me.    - Bella

Dear Bulemia,
                        I hate you.